While meditating, I experienced heartburn. "Heart burn" is an apt name, as it was at my heart center. As I breathed into it, I wondered when in my life I may have experienced pain that burned a place in my heart. I recalled the extreme, and extremely painful, bitterness I felt in my heart after our little Karen died. That bitterness was so hard to bear, it had such a grip on me, I couldn't let go of it. (Or I had such a grip on it?) Did I "burn" a hole of bitterness into my heart? I was released from that pain--instantaneously-- through prayer. But the effects may linger.
I can welcome my "heart-burn" as a painful, but truthful, reminder of such a momentous time in my life. I can feel deep compassion for me and for that wound in my heart. It reminds me of the immense and overwhelming pain I felt, as well as the beautiful and grace-filled healing I experienced.
Now, for more grace ~
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